In My Kitchen this week………..Today was my big monthly grocery trip so I spent the afternoon putting stuff up and cleaned out the fridge
In My Yard ……..Our Bradford Pear Treas are blooming!!! I can see on them from my kitchen window.
I’ve been thinking …. V-A-C-A-T-O-N!!!We'll be going to the Smokies June 6th-10th. Started planning last week
What motivates me more than anything else ...When I feel good both physically AND mentally.
My Devotional life and walk with Christ ….Could be so much better.!!! As I've spoke up many times in my blog I struggle with depression in the winter and too often the first thing that I let slide is my personal time with God. Spring is slowly coming around. I am starting to listen to more sermons and worship music, as well as pray and read more.
I struggle …..That's a loaded question!!! This week I've really been struggling with Mama Guilt. I want to be a good mama; and I believe I am, but many times think or feel like I should be doing more. Satan uses this as one of his tactics to gets to me. Most days I can act and feel like just a "NORMAL" mama, but sometimes a challenge comes up where my disablity stands out and then I remember...Oh, maybe I'm not. As the kids get older, especially Dalton, that don't like anything that makes them stick out. Having a disabled mama is kind of like having a big pink elephant in the room. The lastest is they are having parent/teacher confrences tomorrow. He came in yesterday saying they said I had to have a confrence. Since I don't drive, going to school for a 10 minute conference isn't very easy. So I sent both his teachers an email saying if I needed to come in I would but that if we could communicate by phone or email (which we do) that'd be great. So today, he comes home and tells he almost got a strike because I didn't sign the conference sheet. (???) He says that I think I have different rules. I don't, but I can't do the impossible . I know that there are going ti be some difficult issues in out mother/child relationship. I hope and pray that when time passes, they'll look back on their childhoods and see that I loved them with all my heart and every thing I had, even though I wasn't there at every event and didn't do everything the way a typical mother did.
I dread ….Dalton starting middle school in the fall.
But I look forward …. Spring break is next week!!!