Thursday, March 29, 2012
OK. Recently, Barrett got thee IPAD 3 and I took overr the IPAD 2. I like it, except I can't figure out the best waay to blog. I love blog spot and don't want to change, but am haveing a really hard time in going back and edditing it. Any suggesstions???
Wednesday, March 21, 2012
So, as many of you know the IPAD 3 came out last week. Yes, Barrett wass in line at midnight last Friday to get it! (Yes, I'm married to a geek!) Anyway, I'm trying the IPAD 2... When he got IPAD 2, I'd tried to use the first IPAD with littler success. But since then I've been using an IPHONE, so I've gotten better aquainted at using it. So, I think I like it. He bought me a key board, so I think I may use it more!
Thursday, March 1, 2012
So I came across this quote in the Tennessee Council on Developmental Disabilities: "Disability is a natural part of the human experience..." Not sure why, but I find this a bit disturbing. While I've always been disabled, I don't feel that it is natural. It's hard to look out into a world where it seams like you are the only one that's not "normal" and see your disability as natural. While Cerebral Palsy is not considered a progressive disability; as I age and my life changes the CP affects me differently. It's dismissed as natural phase of aging. I understand this; but it's hard to see as natural when you're aging in your mid 30's whenever one around you seams to be in their prime. It's not that I truly hate being disabled, I don't. I don't exactly love it, But I do see it as a gift that God has blessed me with. (Even throughout the bible, many stories of great blessing also include great trails.) Part of me does see the CP as natural. It's all I've ever known and I have adapted. It some ways that's a good thing; you have to face reality. However, in another way, part of me doesn't want to set my disability as natural. I don't want to just accept my CP; I don't want the CP to define me. I want to constantly strive to do my best and often when I accept things, I tend not to. One of the hardest things about being disabled is that strong desire to be independent. A disability robs you of this; to a certain degree. And sometimes to accept it means to give into it.
Winter is a harsh time of year for me. And Satan knows it. I find it ironic that Valentine's Day falls in the midst of winter. I suppose someone thought it would break up the ho hum of winter. Barrett schedule picks up and he's gone more often. I know Barrett loves me. But sometimes I get lonelyy and after weeks of Valentine's and lovey dovey commercials, I can really start to dissect our marriage and compare it to others. This is one of the most dangerous roads I ravel and yet I find myself on it year after year! God must have a sense of humor! I think Satan tries to use this time of year to divide Barrett and me. The bad part is each year that I do this, the divide gets larger and larger. I don't want this!!! I've got to remember that this it the time of year I've got to be strong and lean when more on God and cast my burdens upon Him, instead of on Barrett