A couple of days ago I was sorta attacked because of the way I blog. I love to write. It's my poral. It's a way for me to express what I'm thinking and feeling. When I was little I loved to read Judy Blume's books. Then it hit me; I could write. Being a kid where most of my peers were involved physically activities that I couldn't participate in. So I used writing as my outlet. I don't write to express self-pity. I want to share my journey with others. No too many disabled women -not too many women period get the opportunity to marryPublish Post the true love of their life, have two wonderful babies and get to fulfill God's will in my life. I know I'm blessed and I'm very thankful...I'm also very human. I do struggle with depression and at times it may creep into a self-pity party. This is a sin which I constantly battle. I'd like to encourage others to live out to be who God wants them to be.
I also wanted to comment on why I chose "The Crippled Mama", as a person whom I don't know. questioned how I could possible have chosen this as my blog name. First of all, let's define the word "cripple". According to dictionary.com, cripple is:
offensive a person who is lame
offensive a person who is or seems disabled or deficient insome way: a mental cripple
dialect ( US ) a dense thicket, usually in marshy land
( tr ) to make a cripple of; disable
[Old English crypel; related to crēopan to
Many people think of "cripple" as a very old
fashioned word. This was almost seen as a "four letter word" when I was growing up. I hated being called crippled, disabled, handicapped are any other word they would describe me as being "not normal". More than one of my brothers got involved in a fight because I was refereed to as "crippled". If you'd had told me years ago I'd have a blog called "The Crippled Mama", I'd said you were crazy. However, when I started this blog last September, I wanted a title that would invoke the main aspects of my life; my being a wife and mama and my having a disability. When I chose the name of my blog, I chose on that I thought would stick out and attract people, not to gain sympathy from anyone. As a writer, I have a deep love for words and the power of them. Yes words can be used to hurt people. But words in themselves can't hurt people The word "crippled"by itself doesn't hold a positive nor a negative stance. I can hurt people by the way I use it and others can hurt me by the way they use it towards me. But at the end of the day, its just a word. How I use it and receive and choose to react to it reflects my heart and my character.