Friday, June 20, 2014


As a Christian, I know the facts - or at least my mind does.  I know that Jesus came and died for my sins.  Yeah, yeah, yeah, I know all that!  But my heart's a little on the slow side.  It's hard to believe you're faultless when you feel like every time you turn around your being blamed for something you've done; especially when you feel like you've done everything the "RIGHT" way."
Growing up with a disability, I felt like somehow I deserved it.  However, at the same time, I was angry.  Why was I disabled, when others weren't? I felt like I owed people because I was such a burden to them.  Every time I fell or made a mess of my self while I was eating I felt like I wasn't doing the best I could.  My favorite word was-and still is- is "sorry"..  I feel like I constantly need to apologize for myself and everything I do.
This is a lie from Satan.  Yes, if I truly wrong someone and I will need to apologize and try to make things right.  But for the most part, I need to just trust God and rely on Him.  I can't control what other people think of me.  If I've done what I truly believed God has asked me to do, then I just have to let those people work out, with God, for themselves.
I'm a people pleaser.   I have been all my life.  And, truthfully, I'm pretty good at it.  I always want others to feel comfortable and loved.  This is not always a bad thing; we are suppose to love others as we love our self.  But loving other and always pleasing them are two different things.
There's and saying; "You can please all of the people some of the time, some of the people all of the time, but you can't please all of the people all of the time!"  The only one that we need to worry about pleasing God.  Now, God desire perfection and we on our can never master perfection, it's neither in our nature, not is it in God's design.
God gave Jesus as a sacrifice for our sins.  It is through His blood that God see us as perfect.  No matter what we do - or fail to do - can change that.  God's blood cover all our sins - those that our intentional and unintentional.    This means that we can feel freedom, because our sins our covered by the perfection of Jesus.  I no longer have to feel bad every time I mess up.  I don't have to apologize for being who I am  because this is who God made me.  I'm not perfect and I will make mistakes,  but as long as I live in Christ and am covered by His blood of perfection I don't have to always feel condemned.    In fact, when I do feel condemned and guilty I am allowing Satan to still the peace and Joy that I can only get from God.

1 comment:

  1. Well said my sweet daughter. You were never a burden but the joy of my life! I love you.


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