Intentional Blogging

I've really been thinking about (& I need to PRAY about it too), being more intentional in my blogging.  I've even toyed the idea of doing away with "The Crippled Mama" and starting a new blog.   This will not, however, fix the problem.  #1 - I've invested way to much time & energy, not to mention my heart and soul into this blog to give it up, and #2 - if I'm not blogging for "The Crippled  Mama", what makes me think I'll do any more post on another blog.  Truth is; I was suppose to enter a writing contest this month & I guess I froze.  Whenever I would think about sitting down do write, I'd think of a million other things that I could and needed to be doing at the time.  I do believe that there a reason and a season for everything in our life.  We are even told this in The Word of God; 

Ecclesiastes 3:1-3

New International Version (NIV)

A Time for Everything

3 There is a time for everything,
    and a season for every activity under the heavens:

²     a time to be born and a time to die,
    a time to plant and a time to uproot, 
³     a time to kill and a time to heal,
    a time to tear down and a time to build,

My top priority in life is to be a good wife and mother.  There are seasons in my life where I have to put my  wants and dreams aside in order to care for them.  I struggle with this in many ways.  First, I'm extremely selfish!!!  I must admit that a lot of the time; probably even most of the time, I want to do what I want to do when I want to do it.  Second, hard as it is to admit,  I use my limitations as an excuse, a reasoning, not to do the best I can in everything I do, & third and anyone who knows this will be shocked (especially Barrett), nut I think I may be a perfectionist.    I know that in compression to most women I know,  I'm not a good wife or mama.  I mean I'm just not:  My house isn't as clean as it should be, I can't drive my little people all over town to fulfill their desires.  I'm not a gourmet cook and most mornings we have to go on a scavenger  hunt for socks and underwear.  While there are a lot of thing I need  to do better, I also know that my best is sufficient.  I don't have to feel quilty because I'm not as good as someone else.  I must remember that God made me uniquely and knew me while I was still in my mother's womb.  (See Psalm 139)  God gave me my husband and kids to love as no one else can!!!

Now, back to blogging.  I do need to  blog more, not only because I love to write, it's also therapeutic for me.  I do need to be more intentionally ut blogging.  I've  got a blog planner and will try to work on this. My spontaneous spirit tends to balk against planners and schedules.   And yes it is very  ironic that I married a VERY Type A person - it does cause major stress in our marriage, LOL!  So I do need to diligently seek the Lord in this area of my life.