1. What physical trait do you wish you could change? Probably my speech impediment. It used to be my walking, but as I get older, not being able to walk bothers me, but being able to communicate with others now trumps that.
When the first time you remember being embarrassed by this? 1st or 2nd grade, I can remember I was suppose to go to a Easter Seal's sleep over and it was the first time I remember being with other disabled children and I realized I was like them and "different" from other kids. I was the only disabled student at my school and I basically did whatever anyone else did and it never occurred me that I was different.
Are you more at peace with it now? Most days I am. Most people are very accepting of people with disabilities and try to listen and understand me. Every now and then I'll meet someone who will not take the time. Talking on the phone is hard for me . I make the kids make most of my "business" calls for me.:) :)
2. When you consider previous efforts to modify your eating habits, what experiences or accomplishments motivate you? Uh, I've never really tried to modify my eating habits before.:p
3. Have you ever thought of your physical flaws as beneficial? Yes, I think the CP is a huge part of my ministry.
What may be hidden benefits? I think my disablity has taught me to be more compassionate for others.
Tuesday, February 11, 2014
Made to Crave - Chapter 7 - I'm Not Defined By The Numbers
1. What mode do you kick into when you feel like you don't feel like you measure up? I usually go one of two ways: I either go into the "I have to prove I can do this if its the LAST thing I EVER do." mode or the "I should really focus on something else" mode.
2. If you could clearly hear God's word to you throughout the day, what kind of things would you want to hear Him say? I'd like to hear him say that He loves me no matter what and that everything I do doesn't have to be perfect.
What specifically would you like to hear God say about your weight and your issues with food? I'd like to hear Him say that I am beautiful no matter what I look like or how much I weigh. I would to hear Him encourage me. I mean I know He's always encouraging me, but sometimes I'd like to hear it in an audible voice.
3. Do you feel like you have everything you need from God to overcome your struggle with food? Yes
4. How do the the number on the scale impact you self worth? No much as to all, my others physical aspects, due to the CP, seam to effect my self-worth more than my weight.
5. What self-defending thoughts or hurtful comments from others run through you mind when it comes to food? That I'm fat and that I'm not that pretty.
What insight and prospective do gain when you ask these questions?
- Is this true? No, because I was made in God's image.
- Is this beneficial? No, it actually hinders progress because when I have negative thoughts it makes it harder to get motivated and to get things done.
-Is this necessary? No, because I know that I am a child of God, and am judge by my heart and not my outward appearance.
2. If you could clearly hear God's word to you throughout the day, what kind of things would you want to hear Him say? I'd like to hear him say that He loves me no matter what and that everything I do doesn't have to be perfect.
What specifically would you like to hear God say about your weight and your issues with food? I'd like to hear Him say that I am beautiful no matter what I look like or how much I weigh. I would to hear Him encourage me. I mean I know He's always encouraging me, but sometimes I'd like to hear it in an audible voice.
3. Do you feel like you have everything you need from God to overcome your struggle with food? Yes
4. How do the the number on the scale impact you self worth? No much as to all, my others physical aspects, due to the CP, seam to effect my self-worth more than my weight.
5. What self-defending thoughts or hurtful comments from others run through you mind when it comes to food? That I'm fat and that I'm not that pretty.
What insight and prospective do gain when you ask these questions?
- Is this true? No, because I was made in God's image.
- Is this beneficial? No, it actually hinders progress because when I have negative thoughts it makes it harder to get motivated and to get things done.
-Is this necessary? No, because I know that I am a child of God, and am judge by my heart and not my outward appearance.
Friday, February 7, 2014
Made To Crave - Chapter 6 - Growing Closer to God
1. What is your response to the idea that we grow closer to God when we deny ourselves something that's permissible but not beneficial? This is so true. Love the quote from Steal Magnolia's; "What doesn't kills us makes us stronger." I think that I very seldom truly deny ourselves something, then we are to do something in order to honor God. I must admit I don't always do this. If I give up drinking cokes, then not only do I replace the coke with something different but as I do, I need to dedicate it to God or praise Him also, and most time I fail to do this.
Have you ever experience being drawn closer to God by denying ourselves something? Yes and it was awesome. Like I said, I should do it A LOT more!!!
Do you believe this could be true of you in your battle with food? YES!!!
2. Are there areas in you life in which you experience self control and feel like your self discipline and wise choices honor God? Yes, most definitely. My life is a lot more peaceful, our home runs better and my family is happier.
What insights about your strengths in those areas might held you to honor God and grow in self-control with you food choices? They can remind me that I just need to keep being patient and trusting in God, and I know He'll help me succeed.
3. Have you ever had the experience of the Holy Spirit nudging you in connection with your food choices? Yes, but sadly I must admit I don't listen most time.
If no, how do you hope the Holy Spirit might help you now? That He reminds me and gives me the courage to do what I need to do.
4. To what degree have your consuming thoughts of food impact your ability to pursue your calling and receive spiritual nourishment? Greatly, because not only do I not always make right healthy choices, but sometimes I just don't eat and if effects my energy level.
5. Would you say your spiritually well fed, spiritually malnourished or somewhere in between? Right now I'm feeling well fed. Since the New Year, I really been trying to stick with morning and nightly devotions. I also try to listen to sermons throughout the day.
Have you ever tried to use food to satisfy you spiritual hunger? YES
What was the result? I never truly get full. I get depressed, I feel guilty. I feel lonely and just generally not good about myself.
Have you ever experience being drawn closer to God by denying ourselves something? Yes and it was awesome. Like I said, I should do it A LOT more!!!
Do you believe this could be true of you in your battle with food? YES!!!
2. Are there areas in you life in which you experience self control and feel like your self discipline and wise choices honor God? Yes, most definitely. My life is a lot more peaceful, our home runs better and my family is happier.
What insights about your strengths in those areas might held you to honor God and grow in self-control with you food choices? They can remind me that I just need to keep being patient and trusting in God, and I know He'll help me succeed.
3. Have you ever had the experience of the Holy Spirit nudging you in connection with your food choices? Yes, but sadly I must admit I don't listen most time.
If no, how do you hope the Holy Spirit might help you now? That He reminds me and gives me the courage to do what I need to do.
4. To what degree have your consuming thoughts of food impact your ability to pursue your calling and receive spiritual nourishment? Greatly, because not only do I not always make right healthy choices, but sometimes I just don't eat and if effects my energy level.
5. Would you say your spiritually well fed, spiritually malnourished or somewhere in between? Right now I'm feeling well fed. Since the New Year, I really been trying to stick with morning and nightly devotions. I also try to listen to sermons throughout the day.
Have you ever tried to use food to satisfy you spiritual hunger? YES
What was the result? I never truly get full. I get depressed, I feel guilty. I feel lonely and just generally not good about myself.
Thursday, February 6, 2014
Made to Crave Blog Hop - Delighting in Obedience
What is obedience?
Obedience is the act of doing what someone ask or tells us to do?
We, as a culture, do not like to obey.
I, as a sinful human do not like to obey,
In the Women's Devotional Bible, Moses has just lead the people out of Egypt and received the 10 Commandments from God. Right after this, the bible starts talking about oxen and slaves and how if someone steals from you, the must repay and how if some mistreats his slave, he may have to set him free for compensation. I tend to get bored reading this part of the bible. It just seems like that time and way of life is so far from where we are now, why should we study it?
Because, it all points to obedience to God.
Yikes! Do I want to go there? Uhm, No.
I was an obedient daughter (most of the time). Isn't one of the privileges of being an adult that you no longer have to obey anyone? I mean, doesn't society tells us that the ultimate success comes from being in charge.
As a married woman, I must say I do struggle with obedience, or need I say it, submission. Yes, I want to love and serve Barrett, but submit to him? That's taking thing too far. I mean I'm a sophisticated lady. My college degree is made from the same paper Barrett's is. I shouldn't have to obey him.
BINGO! I don't have to obey him. I choose to obey him, because I love him. And this is the same reason I choose to obey God. I love HIM. If he tells me to do something, then I have trust Him that it's for my good. Is obeying God always easy; no. Is it always fun? no. But obedience to God gives me peace. This is where the delight in obedience comes from. I need to remember
that the times in my have gone the best or those time in my when I'm being the most obedient to God (and Barrett). It's not exciting or fancy, but I have a good life. Psalm 48:10 says; "Better is one day in Your courts than a thousand elsewhere. I'd rather be a doorkeeper in the house of my God than dwell in the tenths of the wicked." I would much rather be obedient to my Lord and be at peace than be disobedient to God and live my life in shamble
Because, it all points to obedience to God.
Yikes! Do I want to go there? Uhm, No.
I was an obedient daughter (most of the time). Isn't one of the privileges of being an adult that you no longer have to obey anyone? I mean, doesn't society tells us that the ultimate success comes from being in charge.
As a married woman, I must say I do struggle with obedience, or need I say it, submission. Yes, I want to love and serve Barrett, but submit to him? That's taking thing too far. I mean I'm a sophisticated lady. My college degree is made from the same paper Barrett's is. I shouldn't have to obey him.
BINGO! I don't have to obey him. I choose to obey him, because I love him. And this is the same reason I choose to obey God. I love HIM. If he tells me to do something, then I have trust Him that it's for my good. Is obeying God always easy; no. Is it always fun? no. But obedience to God gives me peace. This is where the delight in obedience comes from. I need to remember
that the times in my have gone the best or those time in my when I'm being the most obedient to God (and Barrett). It's not exciting or fancy, but I have a good life. Psalm 48:10 says; "Better is one day in Your courts than a thousand elsewhere. I'd rather be a doorkeeper in the house of my God than dwell in the tenths of the wicked." I would much rather be obedient to my Lord and be at peace than be disobedient to God and live my life in shamble
Tuesday, February 4, 2014
Made to Crave -Chapter 5 - Made for More
1. When you think of past failure and current struggles with food, how do you hope the truth "I was made for more" may help you? It encourages me to remember my past victory.
2. When you introduce yourself to someone you don't know, how do you describe yourself? As a wife and a mother.
What might your introduction reveal about you understand you own identity? I would probably identify myself as a Proverb 31 &/or a Titus 2 women. That I'm a woman chosen by God.
3. Have you ever felt identified by your circumstances? How? Yes, I have been identified by my disability for all my life. Most people people make their first assumption of you by what they see. When the first thing they see is a person in a wheel chair or someone with a speech impediment, the can sometimes have opinions that have been formed by stories, past experiences or media perceptions. While I know this is a natural thing to do it is still frustrating when I encounter it because it catches me off guard. We actually experienced this Saturday night; we went out to eat and the restaurant really wasn't '"wheel chair" friendly. We had to wait for a table, which wasn't a big deal. What bothered me is that the hostess almost made to much of a deal of if. She kept trying to figure out where to seat us. It made me feel like a burden on them. Then, I sorta wanted to see how hard it was to get to the bathroom. I must tell you, I already had the opinion form that it would be difficult - which it was. But I was already upset and it was kind of my way of saying, "See, I knew they weren't accessible!"
4. Insert your name and see how God sees you.
Heather, the forgiven child of God. (Rm 3:24)
Heather, the set-free child of God. (Rm 8:1-2)
Heather, the accepted child of God. (1 Cor. 1:2)
Heather, the holy child of God. (1 Cor. 1:30)
Heather, the made new child of God. (2 Cor. 5:17)
Heather, the loved child of God. (Eph. 1:4)
Heather, the close child of God. (Eph. 2:13)
Heather, the confident child of God. (Eph. 3:12)
Heather, the victorious child of God. (Rm 8:37)
2. When you introduce yourself to someone you don't know, how do you describe yourself? As a wife and a mother.
What might your introduction reveal about you understand you own identity? I would probably identify myself as a Proverb 31 &/or a Titus 2 women. That I'm a woman chosen by God.
3. Have you ever felt identified by your circumstances? How? Yes, I have been identified by my disability for all my life. Most people people make their first assumption of you by what they see. When the first thing they see is a person in a wheel chair or someone with a speech impediment, the can sometimes have opinions that have been formed by stories, past experiences or media perceptions. While I know this is a natural thing to do it is still frustrating when I encounter it because it catches me off guard. We actually experienced this Saturday night; we went out to eat and the restaurant really wasn't '"wheel chair" friendly. We had to wait for a table, which wasn't a big deal. What bothered me is that the hostess almost made to much of a deal of if. She kept trying to figure out where to seat us. It made me feel like a burden on them. Then, I sorta wanted to see how hard it was to get to the bathroom. I must tell you, I already had the opinion form that it would be difficult - which it was. But I was already upset and it was kind of my way of saying, "See, I knew they weren't accessible!"
4. Insert your name and see how God sees you.
Heather, the forgiven child of God. (Rm 3:24)
Heather, the set-free child of God. (Rm 8:1-2)
Heather, the accepted child of God. (1 Cor. 1:2)
Heather, the holy child of God. (1 Cor. 1:30)
Heather, the made new child of God. (2 Cor. 5:17)
Heather, the loved child of God. (Eph. 1:4)
Heather, the close child of God. (Eph. 2:13)
Heather, the confident child of God. (Eph. 3:12)
Heather, the victorious child of God. (Rm 8:37)
Made to Crave - Chapter 4 - Friends Don't Let Friends Eat Before Thinking
1. When a friend experiences success with healthy food choices do you feel encouraged and inspired by her example or do you feel discouraged and envious? I must admit it depends on who it is and where and I am in my personal state. Sadly, most time I am envious.
2. Complete this sentence: I do not want to invite a friend to join me on this journey because I'm afraid of failure and I have trouble with accountability.
3. If accountability is crucial, what is the biggest challenge in making accountability part of your healthy eating plan? Because I lack willpower and don't want anyone else to know it.
2. Complete this sentence: I do not want to invite a friend to join me on this journey because I'm afraid of failure and I have trouble with accountability.
3. If accountability is crucial, what is the biggest challenge in making accountability part of your healthy eating plan? Because I lack willpower and don't want anyone else to know it.
Monday, February 3, 2014
Rambling Monday - On my Mind
Happy Mondays, friends! Well, another is off and running. Dalton has strep throat and had to miss his game tonight :(. Hopefully, they'll win and he'll get to go Thursday. Big week for Bobbye Sue. the 5th grade USO dance is Friday. I'm not going, she said I could, but Dalton said not to. Another part of growing up, I guess.
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